Pain and loss. Trapped. Escape here, escape there. Long for what was. There is no place like home and Oz is paved with bumpy roads. Kansas is calling but we left for a reason. The reason turned ugly and warped and we don’t know why. Pulling children close that went...
During the past several months I have been struggling to figure many things out. One of those is an ongoing pattern in my life of work dissatisfaction. I usually last about 3 years in a job before I hit some sort of wall and want out immediately. This happened again...
I went to work today. I didn’t like it. It didn’t feel good. I don’t think I’ll go back. Just not interested anymore. When I’m done, I’m done. I dated a girl for a day once. It wasn’t right. I didn’t feel right. I can wander along in something of...
(random, unedited, stream of consciousness memories) The storeroom. Chipped white paint. Rotten wood siding. Pieces falling off, never fixed. Aged and worn. Sloped, red tin roof, connected to the brick house. Inside was stuff, both needed and not. The smell of concrete. Grab a ball to play. Grab a bike to...
God and writing have always been mysteries that run throughout my life. Both are fairly unknowable but have strong presence. Neither can be nailed down and explained. Both haunt many people and force them outside themselves in a search for truth. Countless books have been written on both God and...
My wife and I saw The Avett Brothers live for the third time a couple weeks ago. We went down to Washington state to the Gorge Ampitheatre. The kids stayed home with their Grandma. We enjoyed the drive. Music, conversation, and scenery. At one point in our drive Google maps...
Sipping wine at my desk on a Friday afternoon, reflecting on the events of the past several months. It hasn’t been easy. It hasn’t been clear. I’ve felt lost, confused, angry, sad, depressed and anxious. Something about the way I’m living my life is killing me. My wife and I...
Sometimes I'm afraid my children aren't experiencing a real childhood. I understand there is no such thing, but my point is I'm often worried they are missing out. I'm worried they aren't out and about exploring the natural world enough, experiencing solitude in the woods. Where we live doesn't allow...
It's not hard. You start with not taking very good care of yourself and having no real extracurricular activities to fill your tank. It's best to have a very empty tank. Then you work a busy job, come home, looking for some quiet. If you really want this to work,...
When I was a boy I got my hair cut at Dapper Dan's. The barber shop was down the street from my house by the Trolley Stop Deli, the Firehouse, the dry cleaners, a bank, an old train station, and the video store where I rented movies for $2.11. It...